when it comes down to it...

i was sitting in a corner smoking my last cigarette and trying to get money for some cheap vodka when she walked by, holding hands with a new fling. when our eyes met, a look of shock was apparent on her face. after all, it had been two years since i'd seen her. thoughts, words, and emotions all poured into my thoughts. i tried to say something but all that came out was a quiet, shallow 'hello'. i had spend a very long time composing the words that i would say. some were angry, some were sad, and some were kind of nice. so you can imagine i was very frusterated when she passed my by without a word. fuck, im such a coward when it comes to this. well, she looked happy. i got drunk after that. it felt good.