smiles

this is the song i never finished for you
it seems that these notes don't fit you anymore
like hand-me-down clothes and your father's gloves
you fit into me like a knife
and i'm finally pulling the cord on you


smile, i havent seen you in a while
please stay with me for a while
dont leave me tonight but if you have to go,
leave your scent.


christmas time always leaves with letdowns
and hangovers and me being down and out
but i think i found a solution, a remedy
she's a syringe filled with the best antidote
she's my remedy, a melody to forget you.

smile, i havent seen you in a while
please stay with me for a while
dont leave me tonight but if you have to go,
leave your scent.

there's not much room left
the previous owners left some baggage
in this run down shack, the insides are red
i was feeling black and blue today
but your heartbeat steadied mine.

the grass touched the back of my neck
and you touched the front of my heart
i don't think this playground permits the question
once i have the means i will see if you're my savior.
until then, don't you dare change a damn thing.

smile, i havent seen you in a while
please stay with me for a while
dont leave me tonight but if you have to go,
leave your scent.

i'm done.

go ahead and get a fucking restraining order. i am so fucking over this shit. ive accepted that you will always be inconsiderate assholes who only think of yourselves. well what about me? im falling apart every single fucking day because of the hell you've put me through. go fuck yourself because all i wanted was a little compassion and maybe a few seconds to talk with that person i used to love.

you can all go to hell.

FUCK. YOU.

assassinate.

look at me
use me to see
took my head
lose the life i led.









ididitagain.

i'm sorry.

the point is dull but i re-used its medication.
two lines of subtle pain.
but when you said my name, this was all for nothing.
apologies to you, my only confidant.
this relief stabs me because four lines appeared in your room.
so grace the wall once more with your substitute bottle
because these tracks will heal and so will we.

drive my car into the ocean on a wave of mutilation.

i've tried to forget last year.
it keeps blowing my mind
with bits and pieces all around.
this alcoholic summer didn't help with the fear.

this instrument holds a song
that i know i don't want to hear.
rip apart my heart.
at least i'm sure that my mind won't last long.




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